Lust is Love.

I miss me.

When i got sick my life tuned upside down. I knew i would never be the same but i would have never thought that this would be the person i’d become. When i got out of the hospital i knew i would never take life for granted ever again. Sometimes we loose track of whats really important in life. I took me getting sick in a different perspective, when i got better i made sure i wouldnt loose time. I wanted to do everything that i wanted as if i was going to die tomorrow. I wanted to loose my virginity because i didnt want to know what it was like to die a virgin, i wanted to go out with my friends as much as possible because what if i got sick again and went to the hospital for another month all lost time. My parents ask me why i never want to just stay inside…. every moment i sit inside watching tv is more time im loosing outside experiencing life as a normal teenage girl does. I wanna make mistakes, i wana sneak out of the house and do stupid things while i can. I wanna have stories to tell my kids. I wana do things REMEMORABLE. Some part of me definently changed for the better, some things arent as important as they used to be, and now things that werent important to me are. When i was in the hospital it was the longest 2 weeks of my life. i had no connection to anybody because i was in my own room in ICU, i was on a lot of mourphene so some things that happened are a little hazey but what i do remember was my mom did not leave my side. For the whole 2 weeks she left to go home for 2 hours. She slept over night there because i didnt want to be alone but she never left me. Before i went into the hospital me and myh mom never had the greatest relationship i trully feel like being in the hospital made our relationship grow….I miss the person i was before i got sick. I was so active, i wouldnt say no to doing anything. I didnt feel tired all the time, i didnt feel like i was 50 years old i felt 17. I miss feeling 17. I feel like im 30. i miss the person i used to be, but ill never be able to get that girl back. That girls been gone for a while. Were two completely different people.

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Wars

Violence

Abuse

Hunger

Corruption

Discrimination

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I hope someday you will join us

 If you care about your world, reblog this. I won’t kill you to have this on your blog, would it?

i dream of a world of peace.

(Source: itsmywonderfulworld)